Woke up this morning to the first bloom on an orchid that I moved from our previous house. What a beauty. Is this nature promising me that there is always a chance for renewal? I think it is...
True confessions...I have been really having a hard time keeping up with my blog lately. Life outside my blog life as been such a tough up hill battle. Motherhood has turned out to be tougher than I ever imagined. There are days that are so hard to face, so hard to keep one foot in front of the other, that the idea of writing about art and home seem so unimportant. For the past year, I have used The Homeless Finch as my refuge from the daily struggles with one of my kids. Now, I have reached a point when I can't write about a sofa, a pillow or a painting. My mind is just too cluttered with sadness. But don't worry about me, I haven't given up hope. Nature helps me remember that there is always hope...there is always a chance for brighter days...and there will be.
Just hang in there with me. I might not blog as much as I have in the past. I'm okay with that and I hope you are too.
To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.
-Until Next Time-
aw, lesley- i am actually crying for you right now and hope all turns well soon... the orchid is definitely a sign. and change and renewal can happen any time. thinking of you, friend. just know that even though parenting is the HARDEST job you will ever do, it reaps the biggest benefits, even when it doesn't feel like it. the long term effects outweigh all short term effects.
ReplyDeleteTake whatever time you need, my friend. You are in my prayers. If you need to talk, you know how to find me.
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I realize sometimes blogging seems shallow and self serving to outsiders but we are real people with real lives and hurting families at times. That is one reason I wrote HOLD EVERYTHING LIGHTLY series at the first of this year. I blog in part to escape a past life that was awful. I will be praying for you and this kiddo. Hang on and you are right it will pass. much love, olive
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for these trying times Lesley! Keep the faith that if you persevere things will work out! Saying many prayers for you!
ReplyDeleteI so sorry for the troubling times you are going through right now! Hope there is a brighter day for you soon.
ReplyDeleteI hate to hear this. I was worried when I hadn't seen any new posts. I know about trials and have discovered through blogging that so many of your readers do, too. We're all here to support each other.
ReplyDeleteThat lily is amazing. You must have a green "hand" - better than just a thumb, right?
I understand completely. It's hard to get excited about publishing a blog post when there are far more important things weighing on your mind. The teen years can create very trying times for families and I hope things get a little easier for yours. You'll be in my thoughts. Take care.
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Lesley,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is heavy as I write this. You are such an inspiration and I know that blogging can be so challenging when life seems a little overwhelming.
You can do it!
You are truly, truly special.
blessings my wonderful friend,
karianne
I miss you my friend! Call me if you need to talk! Life is tough some times. We have been through tough times but we are two strong chicks!! Praying for your peace.
ReplyDeleteLife can be so hard a times and the curve balls we get thrown at us are rarely the ones we ever thought to worry about.
ReplyDeleteParenting is SO hard. But we're raising people and sending good, honest, admirable people out into this broken world is worth all the effort and tears it takes.
I also get what you're saying about blogging. I've been going through some very serious health issues and I feel like I practically live at the hospital. Yet my blog is chirpy bright collages. Some days I can't stomach thinking up something bright and cheerful to say about them.
I know I'm happy to read whatever you post. And I'm sending support and peace across the miles. Hang in there.
Warmly,
Nicole
Oh Lesley. My heart breaks for you but I know you are solid as a rock and will get through this. Use your blog as an outlet and as you said, a refuge. Post if you want to but if not, then don't. I hope you aren't trying to get through this by yourself. Get help if you need it. I'm here if you want to talk...email me any time. Chin up my friend.
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