Anyone out there feel like I do today? The weather out my studio window is dreary. Non-stop drizzles and rain showers.We've had grey skies for several days in a row without a break. My thoughts are a mirror image of what I see as a peer out my window. Makes me ponder about the creative process and how creative people can find inspiration to create even under dreary circumstances. Many of my friends in colder regions have written about their inability to work on their furniture projects because of the bitter cold, driving them inside for warmer pursuits like needlework and small crafty projects.
My issues run a little deeper. In March, I will celebrate my one year Blog-versary. I am excited about the prospect of celebrating such an accomplishment. But truthfully, I am plagued with thoughts of frustration this morning. Crazy right?! Let me whine a moment explain why. I can't seem to recon my thoughts about "why" I am doing this with what I feel should be the goals based on the time I invest in The Homeless Finch. Plus, the artist inside me is disappointed in myself for not just understanding this pursuit as I should be...as a road traveled that continues to inform my work, my life and fuels my days with purpose...with accountability. Without the blog, I am sure that I would be so back on that road I was on where I couldn't seem to jump start myself. The 'pressure' of reporting in has be a huge motivator for me and this was something that I needed dearly.
So why the dreary mood? Is it the weather? Am I just tired from life and balancing it all...raising teenagers and all the challenges, trying to be the best wife on the planet and a good friend to those around me? Am I needing a moment to stop and re-evaluate where I am, where I am going and what my goals are based on the almost year-long blogging ride I've been on? Do I just need a nap today? (sly smile) Maybe, yes to all the above. Or maybe it is something entirely different.
Do you ever have days, weeks, months like this? Do you ever wonder why you do what you do? Do you ever question your motivations? If you blog, do you ever get down on yourself when you see other blogs grow to huge numbers, while you grind it out on the ground everyday, every week only adding a few followers every few weeks? When you link your posts to parties, are you like me so tired that you can hardly pull off this simple task without straining your tired yes to see how your thumbnail looks on that linky list? Do you, or for that matter should I, care about followers and stats and comments and features?
It might be re-evaluation time. Don't ya think?!! Do you think about these things too? Let me know your thoughts. I'm waiting right here in my dreary little rain puddle, wondering if someone out there feels my soggy little pain. - If I hadn't made the commitment to never use text style writing my on my blog an LOL would have been inserted right here because sometimes....you just gotta laugh and say, Rain rain go away come again another day...
Photos taken this morning just outside my studio door.
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